But I don’t want to live by Faith!

It was in a truly unusual way, when as a young couple, the Lord called my husband and me to live a life of faith.

But I didn’t want to ‘live by faith!’

My Dad was a Pastor. As well being a Pastor he built up his own business for the sole purpose of being able to do what he loved most, which was to bless God’s work. My life growing up was one of seeing my dad giving to ministers and missionaries alike, even building his own church brick by brick.

When I met my husband-to-be, and my dad learned that my father-in-law-to-be was a poorly paid Pastor and had been unable to pay his national health stamps for many years, my dad paid them right up to date for him, then even bought him a car! My dad also paid for my husband’s Bible College fees at the Bible College of Wales, Swansea.

So coming from such a giving and generous family, I cringed at the thought of this new ‘living by faith’ and how I would be on the receiving end, a reliance on others, like being a beggar or a scrounger.

Our call to live a life by faith had come about due to a dramatic call, during the time of the the cruel rule of General Franco in Spain; to take the Gospel to Gypsies living in the mountain caves of Almeria. On receiving the call, we wrote a letter to our denomination explaining our dramatic call to ask for their support. But they were experiencing financial restraints so were unable to sponsor us. So we thought we had merely passed some spiritual test and had proved to God that had it been possible, we would have gone. But months later, God started to speak to my husband and myself separately through Hebrews 11 how God had called people to do things in faith. So we felt moved upon to still obey the call and go ‘in faith.’

On the long journey to Spain, which in those days was on seriously inadequate roads, we were nervous as we didn’t know if we really would find Gypsies living in caves as all! All we had to go on was an inexplicable dream Chris had. We had sold all in UK, burning our boats and went trusting the Lord with our two young sons, all of us in our now new home: a tiny donated dilapidated caravan. We were truly nervous that gypsies living in caves may not really exist, and that we would look total fools to all our friends and relatives, who had kindly stocked us up with ‘goodies’ for the journey, believing in us! (The story of this call, and our life alongside the gypsies in caves, is in my book Lost in Faith).

But my attitude to this ‘living by faith’ needed to change as it was making me miserable thinking that we now had to be ‘looked after’ – and by who? But the Lord graciously started to show me that if ‘living by faith’ was being a beggar or a scrounger, then some of His servants were too! Elijah even asked a widow to make him a cake first from her last bit of food, and how he had to quench his thirst from a brook, and was also fed by birds – ravens of all things!  Jesus wasn’t against receiving help either, from women, which in those days was seen as degrading, and two sisters had an open house for the Lord’s needs. Jesus accepted financial support throughout His ministry. Then a Scripture came to my attention how the Lord blesses the giver more than the receiver!

I then realised through God’s grace that ‘living by faith’ was not being lazy, or a beggar, that it was merely a lifestyle of having to trust God when you had given up everything to just preach the Gospel walking by faith every day come what may, whether via ravens or brooks! And many times it has been so!!

To this very day we still live ‘by faith’ and I have never known what a normal regular income would feel like and I admit that I still have to fight off thoughts of what it must be like to live like that.

You may not have been ‘called’ to live a life of faith like we were called to do. But everyone’s faith journey is different.

If you are walking with the Lord day by day, and getting through your trials come what may, and if you believe in an eternity with the Lord, then that is faith, “without faith it is impossible to please Him

From the age of 12 years I have kept devotional journals and had been asked over many years to have them published. But being a shy and private person I had always declined. But one day in 2009 I felt prompted by a Scripture in 2 Corinthians 1:4  that my story could be of help to others in their own walk with the Lord,“God, who comforts us in trial so that we will be able to be of comfort to others” so I released contents of my journals for my first book Lost in Faith.

Now, I continue to write books on trials of faith having been through the fire myself! But also, because I have a God-given burden for anyone going through trial, and I can guarantee that any one of my books will be of help to you in your own journey with the Lord….

One day, I discovered that the Bible speaks of having a FAT soul! So I wrote The Skinny Soul which contains 26 eclectic messages to keep the soul FAT and healthy.

I believe an ‘enlarged soul’ can strengthen through trial and hinder from backsliding.

By the time you have finished reading The Skinny Soul you will know the size, health, and wealth of the most precious possession we have!

Keep your soul FAT and healthy.

God Bless you.

Christine.

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Contact Email: livingdevotions@gmail.com

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By Christine Smith