But I don’t want to live by Faith!

It was in a truly unusual way, when as a young couple, the Lord called my husband Chris and me to live a life of faith.

But I didn’t want to live ‘by faith!’

My Dad was a Pastor. But as well being a Pastor he built up his own business for the sole purpose of being able to do what he loved most  – which was to bless God’s work. My life was one of seeing my dad giving to ministers and missionaries alike, even building his own church brick by brick.

When I met my husband-to-be and my dad knew that my father-in-law-to-be was a poorly paid Pastor and had been unable to pay his national health stamps for many years, my dad paid them right up to date for him, then even bought him a car! My dad also paid for my husband’s Bible College fees at the Bible College of Wales, Swansea.

So coming from such a giving and generous family, I cringed at the thought of  this new ‘living by faith’ and that I would be on the receiving end and felt ‘living by faith’ would be a reliance on others, or like being a beggar or a scrounger.

Our call to live a life of faith had come about due to a dramatic call to take the Gospel to Gypsies who lived in the remote mountain caves of Almeria, Spain, which was during the reign of General Franco. We wrote a letter to our denomination explaining our dramatic call to ask for their support. But they were experiencing financial restraints so were unable to sponsor us. So we thought we’d passed some spiritual test and had proved to God, that had it been possible we would have gone. But months later God started to speak to my husband and myself separately through Hebrews 11 which says how God called people to do things in faith. So we felt moved upon to still obey the call and to to go ‘in faith.’

On the long journey to Spain we were nervous as we didn’t know there really would be Gypsies living in caves!! All we had to go on was an inexplicable dream Chris had (the story is in my book Lost in Faith) so we’d sold all in UK, burning our boats and went trusting the Lord with our two young sons; all of us in our new home: a tiny donated dilapidated caravan.

But my attitude to this ‘living by faith’ needed to change as it was making me miserable thinking & worrying that we now had to be ‘looked after’  – and by who!? The Lord graciously started to show me that if ‘living by faith’ was being a beggar or a scrounger, then some of His servants were too! Elijah even asked a widow to make him a cake first from her last bit of food, and he had to quench his thirst from a brook, and was also fed by birds – ravens of all things!  Jesus wasn’t against receiving help either – from many women which in those days was seen as degrading; and two sisters had an open house for the Lord’s needs. Jesus accepted financial support throughout His ministry and I then saw the Scripture how the Lord blesses the giver more than the receiver!

I also realised through God’s grace that ‘living by faith’ was not being lazy, or a beggar… it was merely a lifestyle of having to trust God when you had given up everything to preach the Gospel; a life of walking by faith every day come what may, & to be grateful for your needs to be met whether via ravens or brooks! And many times it has been so!!

To this very day we still live ‘by faith’ as we preach the gospel,  and I have never known what a normal regular income would feel like, and to know exactly what you will have to live on week by week; and I admit that I still have to fight off thoughts of how simple it must feel to live like that.

You may not have been ‘called’ to live a life of faith like we had been called to do. But everyone’s faith journey is different.

And if you are walking with the Lord day by day, and getting through your trials come what may; and if you believe in an eternity with the Lord, then that is faith, “without faith it is impossible to please Him

From the age of 12 years I have kept devotional journals and had been asked over many years to have them published. But being a shy and private person I had always declined. But one day in 2009 I felt prompted by a Scripture (“God, who comforts us in trial so that we will be able to be of comfort to others”  2 Corinthians 1:4) and that my story could be of help to others in their own walk with the Lord, so I released contents of my journals for my first book Lost in Faith.

Now, I continue to write books on trials of faith as I’ve had plenty of practise! But also because I have a burden for anyone going through a trial, and I can promise you that any one of my books will be of help to you in your own journey with the Lord….

One day I discovered that the Bible speaks of how to have a FAT soul!

I believe an ‘enlarged soul’ can see you through anything!

So I wrote The Skinny Soul.

By the time you have finished reading my latest book The Skinny Soul you will know the size, health, and wealth of the most precious possession you have!

Keep your soul FAT and healthy.

God Bless you.


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By Christine Smith